Okay, so how come people interpret this “hope” sort of possibilities?
Where they decide that it’s valuable to “hold on” to something and someone all over your life if you love them enough. And if your love was true you must hold on to them??… But nobody ever said for how long??
Nobody ever explained how many attempts more??
How many sleepless nights thinking that we weren’t enough for them in the first place?
How many battles with yourself defending them the denial you feel a long ago?
It’s very easy to love someone, to cherish and admire them for no reason at all, but what about the aftermath.??..
that ruined you to the magnitude.
It’s only you, falling apart, with lots of questions in your mind and hope in your heart and of course withdrawal in your shattered soul.
The kind of damage that can’t be cured.
You were right…
It seems familiar to me then
You became my home too
But you know what?
I discovered that this home housed toxicity too.
It doesn’t mean that my love for you wasn’t true or it faded away.
It doesn’t mean that you gave up on me too soon
And never tried to hold me back
I will never blame you, ever!
Do you remember that it’s not a blame game between us?
It never was..!!
It was a juncture between us when we both felt like we belong together with each other. But it was nothing much than a homesickness
I can not criticize you anymore, I just can’t…
Maybe it might not seem so fine on the other side now but it was right for us.
And I love you enough to Let You Go…
Your world has turned and left me here wondering that one day I might be enough for you too.
But I can not keep on waiting for that damn day, right?
I just can’t wait for you to show up with that unexpected hope.!
“It was easier for me to miss you forever
Rather than hate you to eternity for giving up on me when I needed you the most”
You are allowed to hate me.
Doubt my love for you
It’s okay, I can survive with that
You can accuse me of walking away from you.
But I hope one day
You will understand that it’s easier to let a person go rather than feeling hostility toward them for what they have evolved
Maybe one day you will feel that the world is forever meant for memories and not people. And I always wanted to memorize you like the indistinguishable person I met on the first day
And Not where this ended.
🙂 Apoorva Srivastava